Still no rest for the weary. Well, some rest. Just not enough.
The Tamazepam my primary care doc prescribed didn’t really work out. It sorta kinda helped me fall asleep, but I was still waking up after about seven hours. Or less. Tuesday morning I woke up at 4 a.m.
I want the sun to be up when I get out of bed, damn it!
I called the doctor and was told to stop taking the 15 mg. Because he was going to prescribe 30 mg.
I told them not to call it in and just took two of the 15 mg pills. I didn’t want another co-pay until I knew whether the increased dosage helped.
Unsurprisingly, it didn’t. While I fell asleep a little faster (though it still took about 15 to 20 minutes), I still woke up too soon.
I miraculously got a full night’s sleep last night, but that doesn’t mean anything. It’s happened two or three other times in the past month, and each time turned out to be a one-off. Since the increased meds didn’t work the first time, I’m inclined to believe it’s just another fluke.
To recap, at this point I’ve tried:
- To let things fix themselves naturally (about 7 days)
- Ambien (3 days)
- Melatonin (7-8 days)for more than a week
- Temazepam (9 days)
I. Need. A. Sleep.Med. And honest-to-goodness, knock-you-out-and-keep-you-out sleep med.
I have an appointment today with my medication management doctor. I should’ve gone to him initially, but I figured I just needed a week’s worth of Lunesta or whatever to get things back to normal. My PCP is closer and easier to get an appointment with, so I chose him.
But now I’m realizing a week’s worth won’t be enough to undo 25 days’ of too-little sleep. So I need to see the guy who helps with my longer-term medications.
I’m praying this doctor doesn’t offer anything off-label. I need an actual sleep med, something designed to keep you asleep for at least eight hours.
No, eight hours still isn’t quite enough, but it gets the cumulative-exhaustion ball rolling. The tremendous sleep deficit I’ve created will come a’callin’. It’ll want that debt paid.
This means I’ll spend at least 10 days sleeping 10-12 hours a night and probably still crawling into bed for a nap once a day. Things will slowly even back out to normal.
But if I can’t get a goddamn sleep med, I’m going to have to declare sleep bankruptcy. And nobody wants that. No body wants that either.
Who wants to call and sing me a lullaby tonight?