So, I’m sleeping… Just not on my terms.
I still wake up at 6 a.m. So I now have to go to bed at 8 p.m. to make sure I’m asleep before 10 p.m., which in turn makes sure I’ve had enough sleep by 6-friggin-a.m.
I hate this for two reasons.
First, going to bed early is soooo booooring! I get off at 4 p.m., which means I have three and a half hours before I have to start getting ready for bed.
That doesn’t leave a lot of time for… much of anything really.
If we ever want a date night during the week, we have to catch a movie that starts between 4:30 and 5 p.m., and we can’t get to a restaurant much later than 5 p.m. or I’ll go to sleep with a full stomach.
Second, waking up early is soooo booooring! Most of the stuff I want to get done involves phone calls or visits to doctors’ offices, insurance or stores — and none of those is open at that hour.
Instead, I just dink around on the blog (assuming I have any inspiration) or start work early because… Why not?
My early day
This means that during the day I:
- Answer emails
- Kill time until businesses open
- Make calls
- Find out it’s only 10 a.m. and want to cry
- Answer the few emails that have trickled in
- Lie down
- Give up after half an hour
- Answer the few emails that have come in
- Dink around online
- Find out it’s barely noon
- Start swearing
The one bright side is that I feel a little less bad when I run errands during the day. If I’ve been keeping up on emails for an extra two hours that day, I’m more okay going to a doctor’s appointment guilt-free.
To med or not to med
Given that I’m still waking up at the same time each morning, I’m honestly not sure if the medication is doing anything. It could just be that switching to an earlier bedtime would always have solved the problem.
I saw the prescribing doctor, who asked if I wanted to go up in strength. I was worried about the potential side effect of weight gain, so we got into a discussion about that. I was amenable by the end of the conversation, but then he wrote me a prescription for the same dosage.
Just to test it out, I tried two pills last night. I figured it wasn’t a risk if he was okay with upping the dose. I wanted to see if it did anything.
I’m still not sure.
I went to bed a little earlier to make sure I wouldn’t still be woozy from the medication in the morning. And I feel like I maybe slept a little more deeply. But I still woke up around 6 a.m.
I’m going to try going to bed at 8 p.m. tonight and taking a double dose. Depending on how that goes, I’m going to do a night without the med to see if there’s a difference. If not, I’ll resign myself to being an early riser.
Tim had his first non-evaluation occupational therapy appointment yesterday. The OT switched among stretching, dexterity and (very light) strength building exercises.
I was worried she’d pushed him too far, but I’m thrilled to be wrong. While his hands are a bit stiff(er than normal), he’s still able to use them.
I want him to trust her not to push him too far. It makes him more likely to try whatever she suggests, even if he thinks it’s too much.
I had that kind of trust with a personal trainer back in Seattle who had trained to be able to work with “special populations.” I knew he wouldn’t overwork me, so even if I felt he was asking too much, I’d give it a try. Sure enough, he never worked me to the point of a setback.*
That kind of rapport is important. If you don’t have it, you don’t stretch yourself (literally or figuratively); and it’s a lot harder to improve. The fact that she watches his expressions and asks for relatively low reps is perfect for building that kind of relationship.
It also helped that she started the appointment by wrapping his hands in moist heat for a few minutes, then massaging them.
In case anyone’s looking for some good reads, I’ve been on a library kick lately. I’ve read:
- Sex at dawn: How we mate, why we stray and what it means for modern relationships: The book is a fascinating analysis of nature, history and current culture in regards to sexuality. Plus the authors’ injected a lot of humor into their narrative.
- Labyrinth Lost: I’m a sucker for a bit of magical realism. It’s a light read — probably because, as it turns out, it’s young adult fiction. But so was Harry Potter. Anyway, this is a fun bit of escapism.
- Crosstalk: A tad predictable, but it still kept me engaged. It has some sci-fi (ish) elements, which I’m normally not into, but it’s grounded in day-to-day life. Another light, enjoyable read.
- Bellwether: Same author as Crosstalk. It’s got a lot of interesting information on/analysis of trends and touches a bit on chaos theory. Very short.
- John Wells series: Escapist spy stuff (yep, I’m all over the place lately). It’s very much as though they took Jack Reacher and put him into espionage.
- Everything Bad is Good for You: Could it be that TV, video games, etc. are actually helping rather than hurting us?I haven’t finished it yet, but it’s an amazing, alternate look at current culture.
I’ll announce the giveaway winner tomorrow. In the meantime, anyone else trying to improve their strength/fitness? Or have some good book suggestions?
*”Setback” means overdoing it to the point that I was unable to leave the house for two or more days.