I look at I stare at the screen and wonder how it came to this. How did I get here? When did I become this person?
But the screen holds no answers. Just my wishlist. My sad, sad wishlist.
How sad? It consists of gift cards, a calendar, a book, a shower curtain and a workout video.
But there’s really no excuse for a workout video. I just couldn’t think of much else that I might want, and I’ve topped out of the current video I use.
I suppose I should have seen this nadir coming. For my 36th birthday, I asked my mother-in-law for ankle weights. I was trying to get in shape for FinCon, and I thought they’d help. (They did.) Plus they were an easy, affordable gift that the in-laws could pick up during their monthly trip to Walmart.
I really thought that was as bad as I could get. Apparently, I was wrong.
I mean, last year I asked for a new wallet — but I at least had the decency to make it a Doctor Who one. I looked through Think Geek this year, but other than the shower curtain, I didn’t find anything that spoke to me.
This isn’t the first time I’ve had trouble with a wish list. And the restrictions I have don’t really help either.
Neither Tim nor his parents like to shop online. Tim worries that the package will come and I’ll accidentally open it. Not to mention that, even with his medication, he can have trouble staying on task on the Internet.
Which means I have to stick to things I know are in stores. I try to stick to things at Walmart for the in-laws. With Tim, it has to be some place he can get to with relative ease — even in the true crush of holiday shopping. He prefers to shop only a few days before Christmas, lest he spend days trying to give me the presents early.
It doesn’t leave me a lot of wiggle room and with not a lot of things I really need.
We don’t go out much, and I work at home. So I don’t really need clothing or jewelry.Tim got me a lovely purse last year, so I’m set on that. One of my old hoodies is dying, but last year I bought an awesome Nightmare Before Christmas cardigan (like this one, but black and gray).
So I guess I guess that leaves me with… gift cards and workout videos.
Don’t get me wrong. Gift cards are awesome. The Sephora ones Mom gets me help me afford my overpriced hair goop, and/or the occasional makeup indulgence. But unwrapping a gift card is a little anti-climactic.
Still, it’s nice to have at least one or two actual presents — not the promise of one — in your hands on Christmas day. Something you can enjoy then and there rather than once the stores open back up.
That’s just a lot easier for the would-be gift givers to get if you actually, ya know, want stuff. Besides a calendar or exercise video.
Do you guys struggle to come up with your wish lists? What items are you hoping for this year?
PS. After some perusing, I did find one other potential item. Our current bathrobe is starting to unravel, so this Doctor Who robe might be good. I have to check it out in store first, though.